Night of all nights,
Last night started out like almost any other night, went to sleep with out almost no issues at all, and then out of the blue I was startled awake like nothing else, I don't remember the dream, don't know if I want to either. But once awake almost I had a RSL attack from no where like nothing else I have experienced. I only say RSL because that is the best I can describe it. At first I thought it was drugs gone wrong, way wrong! but I checked my heart rate and that was fine, breathing was fine, I could do simple tasks with no problem. So I knew I didn't need to go to the hospital. I tried relaxing, with some of my normal tricks, as I waited for the requip to kick in. It was only getting worse, my arms and legs were shaking like I was having a seizure, only I wasn't (I don't think anyway) because I could talk to Chad, and I was being fairly reasonable under the circumstances.
He wanted to take me into the hospital, but there was no way I wanted to go there, I couldn't explain it to him, how could I explain it to a Dr. I couldn't get comfortable in my own house, how in the heck was I going to get comfortable at the hospital. So he asked if he could give me a blessing. (the whole time I am shaking out of control, worse than baby shakes, except it was just my arms and legs) He gave me a blessing, and was very straight forward, and right to the point. I bless you that you will be able to relax, long pause, I bless you that you will be able to be comforted and rest. long pause I bless you that you will be able to sleep well, long pause, and then he ended. I just having Chad a wake and talking to me was 100% comfort in and of it's self little alone a blessing too. I came out got a drink of water, took CeAnna to the bathroom turned off her 1:00AM alarm. and went to bed, and was asleep just about that fast too. I had a dream, Ruth was there Brushing my long hair (except it is really short right now, my dream hadn't caught up to my hair cut yet another story) We were just talking about everything and how it was all okay, not to worry. I don't know why I don't worry about her, I worry about everyone else, epically the Jarman's and Joie. And Joe & his family. I worry about everyone else about the same and just what they are dealing with and the stress going on in their lives, but I don't think worry is the right word, I spend time thinking positive compassionate thoughts and sending them your way. (the prayer in my heart thing) Along with daily prayers. I don't think it was actually Ruth in my dreams, but I do know she really had issues with RLS and we would have a lot of conversations on that topic. I do think she was close by in spirit, and wished she could make it better for me. It was a really freaky night for me, that ended feeling really close to my sister.